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Originally Posted by Rufinito18 Dear Rydia,
You have no idea how much you’ve intrigued me since I met you, that special day, when I accidentally killed your mother and destroyed your village. Your amazing power subdued me; I had to protect you against the horrible empire! At that time, you were a sweet, innocent child, who lacked parents. I gladly took the job, and took care of you while you traveled with us. Oh, how cute you were, when you shuddered at the mention of fire, you were so defenseless, and I was happy to be the one that sheltered you, that loved you. Your growing skills with magic fascinated me; you were truly one incredible child. I became more and more attached to you, and I hoped nothing would happen to you because of me.
Yet, that feared time came, and it came down so hard on me. My heart shattered, it was broken, un-reparable. Leviathan had taken you. I was haunted by remorse, by the culpability; I had led you to your death. During countless nights, I walked into the woods, far away from the two little twin brothers that accompanied me, and I sobbed, I sobbed and I sobbed. I had lost my little child forever, I was the one that caused her so much grief by killing her mother, and I had dared bring her on those murderous waters. I cursed myself, I hated my reflection. I missed you, your adorable smile, your battle stance; you had been my little daughter. I must admit, at that time, I thought of suicide, I had wanted to have a child with Rosa for such a long time, and you had been the one I had always wanted.
However, I had to act, and I did. I became a paladin, and went over to the underworld, to protect the crystals, but something inside of me was empty, oh so empty! It was a deep wound, and I never thought it would ever heal.
That’s why, when Golbez attacked us, I was ready to die. I had no more hope; I had failed at everything in life. I couldn’t protect you, I couldn’t protect the crystals, I couldn’t protect anything. As I closed my eyes, in front of Golbez intimidating form, I thought of you, as well as Rosa, the one that I had constantly saved from the grips of the enemy. Suddenly, like a miracle, you came out of the mist, and saved me. At the time, I was convinced it was a dream, a mere dream. However, when I heard your beautiful voice, I convinced myself, and I was able to stand up, and face the enemy. You had changed, so much. You were not the little girl I knew anymore, you had become a mature and intelligent lass, and incredibly powerful too. That’s when my feelings started to shift. My love for Rosa evaporated, and I fell in love with you, you captured my heart. Your incredible black magic skills, your summoned beasts, but mostly, the fact that you had saved me, made this infatuation even stronger. I will never forget that day; it was the dawn of my love for you.
Nevertheless, I still could not admit this. You had still been sort of a daughter to me; I was scared of this love. Passion burned every time I heard your voice, and you impressed me throughout our journey. You had grown into such a woman, a magnificent one, both in the views of personality and, well other things. Your courage astounded me, and I took your example from that time. If you had not been there, I would be dead right now, and since you saved me that fating day, I have not been able to deny this love, it has been so strong, and it’s haunted me until now. I love you Rydia, I love you so much. I want to spend my life with you, marvel to your magnificent stories of the Land of Summoned beasts, but mostly, I want to live with your optimistic personality, that has kept me alive and motivated all through this terrible journey. I now ask you, will you love me as much as I do? Will you marry me?
With lots of love,
Cecil Harvey
Originally Posted by Miho Dearest Locke,
I hope this letter finds its way into your hands. I am hoping to see you once more before Kefka finds and kills us. I have come to understand that I have been in a coma-like sleep for a year. I found out that Kefka is now the god of this world, and I truly believed that you - as well as the others I have come to know as friends - were dead.
I was panicked. Anyone who had shown any compassion toward me, anyone who had offered to me the hand of friendship, was... dead. I believed that I no longer had any reason to live. I attempted to end my own life by throwing myself off a cliff, but I failed. And Locke... I believe that you, in spirit, saved me. I awoke to the soft chirping of a seagull. Initially, I was angry. What right did that bird have saving me? I didn't want to be saved! I wanted to be dead; I wanted to end the suffering that I had endured for so long. I wanted to be free of all my horrible sins. I had slaughtered men, women, and children alike, without a second thought. I burned down towns, I continued the slaughter. I was worthless; I was a menace to mankind. I needed to be dead, even if I was forced to take the coward's way out. I couldn't bear life without those that had been close to me.
That was when I saw the bandanna... the bandanna tied around the seagull's neck. I recognized it immediately. I knew - or rather, sincerely hoped - that you were alive. I understood that someone with sins dyed the color of the blood he spilt could not truly be happy, but with you... I felt happier than I ever could have imagined. I knew that once I was with you once more, we could return the world to the way it's meant to be.
I still remember the day we met. It must have been an odd sight for you - seeing the Imperial Witch, the general with a heart of ice, chained to a basement wall, broken and bruised. I'll admit that I was scared of you, at least at first. I thought you would kill me. But you saved my life. You did not only that, but you befriended me as no one had before. You trusted me. You did so much for me, and I did nothing in return but shun you. I was afraid, Locke. I was afraid to reveal emotions. I had been taught since before I can remember that emotions need to be killed before they kill your reasoning. I distanced myself from you as best I could, but to no avail. I began to fall in love with you. And damn it, Locke, I was afraid to love you. I knew the suffering you endured when you last loved someone, and I didn't want to put you through it again.
I often wondered if you ever truly forgave me when I seemed to turn against you in the Magitek Research Facility. I would have died rather than join Kefka and the Empire again. I never wanted to see myself again as the heartless killer I once was. I wanted a new life, and with you, Locke, that would have been possible.
But now that Kefka has proclaimed himself God of this world, I fear that I will never again see your smiling face. Less probable is the chance that you and I will even meet again. But I had to tell you, Locke. The feelings I have expressed were the original reason I attempted to take my own life in the first place. I would have likely impaled myself on my own blade if I kept these feelings within myself.
I am going to face Kefka, whether alone or with the aid of those living among our odd group of misfits, only Time and Fate can tell. I send this letter with the same seagull that saved me with the hope that, someday, I may see you again.
Yours faithfully,
Celes Chere |
02-11-2007, 07:41 PM
