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| Day 1 decided to post here just for the fun of it Went to summer school and was subjected to mind numbing lectures. stupid teachers Dance practice was cancelled today. Was surprisngly disappointed at this sudden change of plans Had 3 hours extra free time than expected Used this time to randomly surf the internet and lurk on the board posted a few times today. go me the board amuses me much, although this pesky 'newbie' status bugs me. must devise a way to get rid of it ~Miri~
07-09-2002, 07:20 AM
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| Journal, I don't like myself. Whenever I see Tatum online, I always feel terrible, and hated. Why? I want to get this over with, but it's hopelessly not, and I still want to be friends with her, but she wants time away, so I here I am. I haven't spoken to her for quite awhile. I do fine, but when I know that's she's on, I feel uneasy and terrible. I hate this. I want to stop feeling guilty each time. I hate it. I just want to go away and never come back. I've considered resigning, but I've been convinced not to, I want to hurt myself, but that's no way to end my life. I don't want to hurt myself, or anyone, but.... I've been feeling more pessimistic lately, and it's all this damn thing's fault. >=( No one reads my LJ, no one takes a look at me. I feel empty and void. *sigh* I am so hopeless, I lost a friend that I had cared for, but recklessly act foolish around with. Now I'm regretting myself, I'm doubting I'll ever be forgiven, I doubt she will ever be friends with me. I am such a *&*# idiot. why do even bother making fun of myself. ;_; Self-pity am not goal. I hate you Jeff.
07-09-2002, 01:13 PM
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| Dear Diary, Today i was soooo bored that i got my mom to play piano versions of final fantasy songs...she thoght they were "cool little tune". also my form tutor(who i hate) is burning a cd for me...hehe...he doesn't realise i dun like him...but meh...it's nice that he's doin' it for me^^
07-09-2002, 09:18 PM
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| Diary, Well here I am at Delhousie residence with Matt and Paul in Halifax after a night of drinking before we head home tomarrow. Been one hell of a trip but I am looking forward to getting home. Should probably make this entry short; too bloody hard to type in my current state! WEEEEE! FUN FUN SILLY WILLY!
07-10-2002, 05:39 AM
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| Dear Diary, Today was sooooo cool!!! we were at chessington and a friend kept on asking out all these total strangers...most of them said smurf off...but one said yes and now they're going out even tho they live nowhere near eachother^^ i can't believe it!!!they kissed^^ also...i was too scared to go on samurai...but i went on...dragon falls, the weird swing thing, run-away train...umm can't be bothered to put 'em all down^^ the down-part is that i lost something and i got sunburnt^^;; well...anyway it was still fun^^ C!Ya!Bki
07-11-2002, 07:49 PM
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