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#9  Diary. I just got beaten up, by a bunch of jerks. I didn't expect to see him that soon. He had some of his friends with him. I've got a broken arm and some broken ribs. It hurts plenty, but I think I nailed them. Obviously some of them knew martial arts, and could fight back. At least they didn't carry any knifes. It could have gone ugly if they had. I hope not to see more of them, or else my sister is going to have to hide someplace else. I'm having a hard time right now. I want to die. But then again, who would protect my sis? I will have to wait until she finds someone special. True love I suppose. Then I could die. Or move on to a new life. I'll figure out soon enough. |
02-12-2002, 04:37 PM
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 | Tuesday, Febuary 12, 2002 - 4:00 PM Diary, God today was a bad day. I mean everything just started off badly - woke up not feeling well, the weather was bad but not bad enough to cancel classes, I have a real problem with my accounting professor - bloody know-it-all bitch, and on top of everything else when I was giving Matt a ride home after classes around 2:30 I was going threw an intersection - on a goddamn GREEN LIGHT and two jackoff's my age decided to run the red light and nearly slammed in my car. If they had of hit me I would have been T-boned and more than likely I would have been killed. Pretty unnerving to think that at 2:30 today my life almost came to an end - 18 years is not a very long run at things. Well, at least I don't have anything else I need to do today - I can just take a break - boy is that a load off. I guess I really shouldn't worry to much about school - I mean it will be done with in just a few short months and I will be able to go away to university with a high 80% average - I guess that is something to be happy about. Counting down the days until school is over in June and Matt and Paul and I will be going on the road - it is going to be AMAZING! We three fools backpacking across Canada for the summer! Oh ya! It is going to be a great way to celebrate the end of high school and the start of university. Well, I guess that is about it for today, here's to hope that tomarrow will be a better day than today. |
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02-12-2002, 10:14 PM
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| | Diary. I went to the doctor, and was told that my arm, after a few months, will be fully functional again. So I guess I will be running around not able to do physical work. Whatever. My sickness is also getting better, which, by the way, is the best of news I've had in years! This turns out to be a good day. Really good. I haven't found anything cheap, for my friends computer. I think I'll leave the decisions to him. I haven't got time to help him either. We both have too much to do. It's like we're drifting apart. Me and my friends. I don't think that I will ever see them again. Our studies takes us to far off places, and it sucks. I don't have any friend nearby. My nearest friend is about 30 miles from here. Great. We will be meeting each other at least 3 times a year. My sister wants to go to college here. I don't think it will work. I want her to move out as far as possible. Far away from this place. To another country perhaps. She knows a lot of languages, it shouldn't be hard for her to study in another country. She'll have to move out soon. Come to think about it, the "boys" actually wanted to kill me. Who knows what they might do to my sister. Shouldn't think about it. I hope this day continues with the good things. |
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02-13-2002, 11:50 AM
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| | Wed, February 13, 2002 - 5:35 PM Diary Hmmm...well, I can't exactly say today was a "great day" - I still find my accounting teacher to be nothing but a self-serving, know-it-all bitch who teaches simply because she has probably failed at everything else she has ever done. Oh well, if I was a failure to I would probably be bitter as well...hehehe. Ah well, school may not have been the best but I only had about 1/2 hours worth of homework - got most of it done at school - yay! On the bright side this meant I was able to workout for about 45 minutes - really hard, I was able to workout all that frustration and anger from school. Feel a lot better now. I've been able to get back up to working out 4 or 5 times a week - feel a lot less tired again. The only catch is come tomarrow morning I will be so sore I will not be able to move - oh well... What else to write about...hmm... can't really think about anything off hand. Oh ya, I am really starting to wonder if Matt will be able to survive this last semester of high school. I mean, I am only taking 3 OAC's and I get a spare to do my homework, Matt on the other hand is taking classes all day long. I think he should have given more thought to his decision to take 4 OAC's this semester. Oh well, I guess it not really my place to tell other people how to run their lives, I just hope he is able to keep it together - he seems pretty run down right now. Well, that's about it - one less day until the trip this summer - boy is that going to rock! |
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02-13-2002, 11:37 PM
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| | Diary I'm the worst  on earth. I grounded the only person I love. Yes, I grounded my little sister. I even yelled at her. I can't stand myself. I hoped I could take care of her, as I promised, but I seem to fail. What would mother say to this. I'm a failure. A big failure. If mother and father knew that I yelled at my little sister, they would be disappointed. Even sad. I just want to take a long walk. A very long walk. But I have to make sure, that my sister doesn't crawl out the window, to meet this guy. What the hell, is wrong with her? She feels sorry for him or something. "I have to say goodbye. After all, we lived together you know." I can't really say anything to that. I guess I just freaked out the first time she told me, that she decided to meet him one last time. What if he suddenly stands up from his wheelchair and hurts her? What if life sucked so much, that she accidently was hit by a car, while going to him? This is freaking me out. All of it. Sooner or later we'll have to get her stuff, though. It's better to get it now before he recovers. I don't think I have clear thoughts right now. But have I ever? My background says I'm "special". Whatever. Oh damn. She's crying. I better do something. I'm an asshole. The biggest bastard ever. EDIT: She's okay. In fact, she's sitting right next to me. Readingeverything I'm typing right now. Why don't you say "hi"? Come on, I know you're reading this. hi. let me chance the color... Last edited by Bulldog; 02-14-2002 at 11:27 PM. |
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02-14-2002, 11:17 PM
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| | Thursday, February 14, 2002 - 9:51 PM Diary, Ha! I knew that eventually this series of bad days would be snapped! Now, it is not exactly like anything spectacular happend today...but on the other hand - not a thing has bothered me all day! Ahh...it is so nice to be reminded that not ever day is a hassle of epic ammounts! Hmm...well...let's see...it Valentine's Day. I guess normally I am always down about this day because I don't have a girlfriend. It is not really bothering me today - after all, none of the girls here are worth the effort - sure some are attractive - but they all suffer from that small town persona that I dislike so much. Oh well - this time next year I will be at University in Toronto and I will have no problems in this department. Well, looks like Canada got screwed out of a gold metal at the games - doesn't really supprise me, after all, Canada is viewed as a joke by most of the world anyway - especially the United States. Hmm...I probably shouldn't get started ont the States tonight - I'll probably be here half the night. My brother's got a reading week coming up. Not sure if he is coming home though - don't even know if that would be a good idea. As much as I like the guy it seems that we are not able to get along together for more than 2 or 3 days before we are at each other's throats. Guess I will just have to wait and see what happens. Guess that's about it for tonight - heh, that cat of mine is lying on my computer monitor again - can't really blame her - must be nice and worm! And if there is one thing this cat likes, it is warm things! Wonder what she is thinking about right now... One less day until the trip this summer! |
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02-15-2002, 04:07 AM
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| | I visited Laurana today. I was there for only 4 hours though. It should have been longer, but I had pressing matters. I will visit her tonight. It's weekend now, so I have all the time to tell her my feelings. I haven't been there for weeks. Could I change the past Then it would be to never have met you, my love Never |
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02-16-2002, 02:43 PM
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